one

one

 

i have heard

“i am only one

yet i am still one”

but

i am still only one.

i wish i were more than one.

i have heard

“the need is the call”

if the need were the call

i would be in

israel meeting with secret believers

uganda helping prevent the abduction of children

thailand working to stop the sex trade

north korea smuggling Bibles

papua new guinea sharing the gospel

afghanistan encouraging defeated soldiers

the philippines feeding starving children

kenya guyana haiti china congo saudi arabia india iraq sudan

oh

and brooklyn

i don’t like hearing about need

around the world anymore

not because i want to close my eyes

but because i want to open them

and am forced to close them

because i cannot help all of them

i don’t like seeing homeless people

cold and begging for money

not because i want to ignore them

but because i want to rescue them

and am forced to ignore them

because I cannot help all of them

i don’t like that i am one

the needs of the world

are too great

for me to be

one

i have 300 children

and cannot meet

a fraction of their needs

i am overwhelmed by

their loss

their pain

their choices

i give them what i can

but it is not enough

i don’t like that i am one

the needs of my children

are too great

for me to be

one

i know that it is God

who makes change

but He has called us

He has called me

one

i am not content to just

do something

something is not enough

something is too small

there is too much need for something

i have heard

“i am only one

yet i am still one”

but

i am still only one.

i wish i were more than one.

despite what i wish…

i AM only one.

so what will this one do?

i cannot be more than one

so i can only make sure

my one

counts.

that my one is not just something

for the sake of something

because it is better than

nothing

no

though my one cannot be

everything

it can be everything it can be

so here i am

one

ready to be counted.