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Showing posts with label Unanswerables. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Unanswerables. Show all posts

1.27.2012

one

one
 
i have heard
“i am only one
yet i am still one”
but
i am still only one.
i wish i were more than one.

i have heard
“the need is the call”
if the need were the call
i would be in
israel meeting with secret believers
uganda helping prevent the abduction of children
thailand working to stop the sex trade
north korea smuggling Bibles
papua new guinea sharing the gospel
afghanistan encouraging defeated soldiers
the philippines feeding starving children
kenya guyana haiti china congo saudi arabia india iraq sudan
oh
and brooklyn

i don’t like hearing about need
around the world anymore
not because i want to close my eyes
but because i want to open them
and am forced to close them
because i cannot help all of them

i don’t like seeing homeless people
cold and begging for money
not because i want to ignore them
but because i want to rescue them
and am forced to ignore them
because I cannot help all of them

i don’t like that i am one

the needs of the world
are too great
for me to be
one

i have 300 children
and cannot meet
a fraction of their needs
i am overwhelmed by
their loss
their pain
their choices
i give them what i can
but it is not enough

i don’t like that i am one

the needs of my children
are too great
for me to be
one

i know that it is God
who makes change
but He has called us
He has called me
one

i am not content to just
do something
something is not enough
something is too small
there is too much need for something

i have heard
“i am only one
yet i am still one”
but
i am still only one.
i wish i were more than one.

despite what i wish…
i AM only one.
so what will this one do?
i cannot be more than one
so i can only make sure
my one
counts.

that my one is not just something
for the sake of something
because it is better than
nothing
no
though my one cannot be
everything
it can be everything it can be

so here i am
one
ready to be counted.


1.13.2012

Still Wrestling

These issues are "old."  The wrestling is not.  As I continue to wrestle, I re-post this blog originally written in August 2010 as a response to some "current events" taking place at that time.  Upon re-reading, I found that I feel more strongly about everything I wrote in this post than I did even at the time I wrote it.  One of the pastors at my church [Brooklyn Tabernacle] that I work very closely with said that one of his goals this year is to help non-Christians view Christians differently.  I'm down with that.  Read below and you'll see why.

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AUGUST 2010

One of my biggest pet peeves is so-called “churchianity.” I’m sure that many people have their own definition of this term, but I take it to mean religiosity without heart. Christian clichés without compassion. Catch-phrases that are thrown around without a thought as to whether or not they’re even biblical. Knowing how to orchestrate a conversation, or a prayer, or a service or a song in a way that might elicit an emotional reaction but falls short of any real transaction with God. And if you think that this note is going to be some rant blasting “fakers” in the church – please. The reason why this is such a pet peeve of mine is because, more often than not, the offending party is myself. I’m constantly catching myself falling into the trap of churchianity – and I at least thank God that He’s helping me to extricate myself as quickly as possible when I become aware of it. And it’s because I’m so sensitive to my own hypocrisy that I find myself being aware when it manifests in those around me and even society in general. I personally believe that it is one of the most destructive forces [if not the most destructive] that exist in the Christian world today – and one of the primary factors that hinder the spread of the Good News. Brennan Manning once said this:

“The greatest single cause of atheism in the world today is Christians – who acknowledge Jesus with their lips and walk out the door and deny Him by their lifestyle. THAT is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable.”

Now, I’m not an advanced apologist or theologian, nor am I well-versed in the current trends of Christianity in America today. But from my limited amount of knowledge and the people that I’ve had conversations with – Christianity in American today has a horrible reputation. It just does. And the two most common objections that I’ve heard said as to why people have no interest in becoming Christians are: “Christians are narrow-minded, judgmental, anti-gay, anti-abortion, anti-this, anti-that”…. or…. “it all just seems really fake to me.” Notice that these objections have nothing to do with Jesus. The objections to Christianity are focused on Christians.

This morning, I saw four different posts that set off a wrestling match inside of me about my own Christian walk as it pertains to this issue. I feel compelled to share two of them with you [with the other two to come as part of another note at another time] – not as a means of eliciting guilt or being confrontational – but as a means of allowing you to wrestle along with me and maybe even open up a dialogue of what we can do about it.


FACEBOOK POST #1: Anne Rice Quits Being a Christian
http://life.nationalpost.com/2010/08/05/father-raymond-j-de-souza-anne-rice-wants-christ-without-the-christianity/

Superquick Background: Anne Rice used to write vampire novels. She decided around ten years ago to return to the Catholic faith of her childhood. Last week, she made this statement: ““Today I quit being a Christian. I’m out. I remain committed to Christ as always but not to being ‘Christian’ or to being part of Christianity. It’s simply impossible for me to ‘belong’ to this quarrelsome, hostile, disputatious, and deservedly infamous group.”


After giving her props for the use of “disputatious,” my immediate first thought was defensive. I mentally gave her a thumbs-down on her theology – after all, one cannot base one’s theological viewpoint on the appearance of others who “claim” to be following that same theology. There are just too many confounding variables that refute that logic – a high percentage of those individuals used as a reference are [statistically speaking] probably not “really” Christians – the fact that Christians still sin all the time as we’re all in different stages of our sanctification process, etc. My second thought was anger and frustration at “those Christians” who were the cause of Ms. Rice deciding to slap the “quarrelsome, hostile, disputatious and deservedly infamous” label on followers of Christ worldwide.

But then my third thought set off some squirming, as God quickly turned my mental finger-pointing back to where it belonged – myself. My walk. My community. Sure, I might not be picketing with “God hates gays” signs or blowing up abortion clinics in the name of Christianity… but what am I doing? If Christian means “follower of Christ,” can I wear that label with any kind of life-proved authority? Am I known more for what I’m against than what I’m for? Am I more concerned with accomplishing tasks than loving people? And if I am… then I’m just as responsible for validating Anne Rice’s decision than those who overtly smear Christ’s name. Don’t get me wrong – her decision is her own and obviously was made for deeper reasons than simply not liking the choices of a few Christians that she knows. She is solely responsible for her own choices and decisions. But it’s just like I tell my REMIXers when we’ve talked about purity. I tell the girls – “look, guys are solely responsible for guarding their eyes and heart against lust. But if you go walking down Fulton Street with 80% of your skin showing – are you making it easy or hard for them to do that?” Same way here – people are solely responsible for their decisions for or against Christ. But as Christians, are our own actions paving the way for someone to come to know God – or are we actually standing in the way of it?


FACEBOOK POST #2: Proposition 8
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/08/05/us/05prop.html

Superquick Background: In 2008, California passed [with 52% of the vote] Proposition 8, a constitutional amendment that banned same-sex marriage, declaring that “only marriage between a man and a woman is valid or recognized in California.” Last week, a federal judge in California [Vaughn R. Walker] overturned Prop 8 citing that it was unconstitutional because it discriminates against gay men and women. Appeals are now in progress.


First of all, everyone relax. For whatever reason, I’ve found that bringing up the issue of homosexuality in a Christian setting often elicits the same reaction as someone saying “bomb” on an airplane – but I don’t intend to have a theological discussion on this issue at present. What got me wrestling this morning wasn’t so much the theological implications of Prop 8, but rather how the Christian community is reacting to Prop 8. A number of my Facebook friends – both gay and straight, Christian and non-Christian – posted different articles, thoughts, statuses [stati?] regarding this issue – and I applaud that. I applaud discussing, sharing, voicing opinions over difficult issues rather than burying our heads in the sand and pretending they don’t exist. I looked specifically through the posts by my Christian friends, and noticed that some of them were well-written and thoughtful, while others were, honestly, downright offensive. And the thought came to me – if I were LGBT [lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender] and I read some of these FB postings… would they point me to Christ or make me want to have nothing to do with Him?

Now, before any uproar ensues and the can of worms explodes all over our computer screens, let me make a couple of statements. First, as stated before, I’m wrestling with these issues. I don’t know all the answers – I’m simply being honest enough to ask the questions. And my question really is: how should we, as the Christian community, be reacting to this latest political development in a way that would honor and glorify God?

Well… let’s think Biblically here. When asked what the greatest commandment of all was, Jesus replied as follows: “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments” [Matthew 22:37-40]. And elsewhere in Scripture [John 14:15], Jesus says that a sign that shows that we love Him is our obedience to His commands. So in EVERYTHING that we do, we have two commands – to love God [and one way we do that is through upholding His law], and love other people.

So what does that mean? Well…
1) If we uphold God’s law, but neglect loving other people as we do it – we’re wrong.
2) If we love other people but neglect to keep the commands that God’s given us – we’re wrong.

People always used to use WWJD [What Would Jesus Do?] as one of those Christian catch-phrases, and I would laugh because my answer to that question was always “I have no idea.” Jesus was constantly doing things that people would have found unpredictable – I mean, come on, an adulterous woman is thrown down at his feet by a crowd bent on stoning her… WWJD? Well, of course, He’d bend down and start writing on the ground with a stick.

Yeah. That was gonna be my NEXT guess.

If I were going to redefine that phrase to make it a little easier to work with, I’d probably opt for “What WOULDN’T Jesus Do?” Adulterous woman example? What WOULDN’T Jesus do? Well, He definitely wouldn’t pick up a stone and hurl it at her. He definitely wouldn’t just gloss over her sin and tell her to continue on doing whatever she felt like. See how much easier this is?

But, as I close [lol], I’m trying to somehow apply this principle to this current debate over Prop 8. What Would Jesus Do? I honestly don’t know. But I’m pretty sure at least what He wouldn’t do – I don’t think He’d be posting messages with slurs towards LGBTs. I’m pretty sure that He wouldn’t dismiss any mention of human rights with “whatever, they’re just sinners.” I also don’t think that He’d be applauding it – because He cannot deny what His own Word says about marriage. But neither do I think He’d be silent – the Jesus that I read about in my Bible was VERY much an activist. The only thing that I do know is that He would uphold truth with the utmost love. And, regardless of how we as Christians choose to respond to this new development – if we want to continue to CALL ourselves Christians – we had better be choosing to do the same.


12.26.2011

Maybe Someone Knows

I've been thinking a lot lately about the homeless.  It's winter now, and it's cold, and there are thousands of people living in my city that do not have a place to sleep at night - and that bothers me.  I think, in theory, it bothers most of us.  But it's also a complex issue and there aren't any easy solutions - and I've struggled for many years on how Jesus would want us, as Christians, to respond to the issue of homelessness in our city.  I stumbled on this note that I wrote almost four years ago after an experience that I had with a homeless woman, and the end of it pretty much sums up exactly what I would have written if I had encountered her today.  This is not a post with answers.  This is a post with questions, and questions can make us uncomfortable - but if there's one thing I know, it's that God often lives in the uncomfortable.  Maybe through our questioning, we can find Him here.